Things you miss

d-floe · November 6, 2015 05:38 AM

Is there anything you miss, something you use to do, or people you use to know?

Figured I might as well start.
I miss the old friends I use to have, I had been good friends with some people I knew for years. I left them after they each did something to betray my friendship, and even though I know what poor influences they were on me, I still miss being able to talk to them about shit. I'd spend every waking hour trying to keep in touch with them as we shared with each other shit on our mind. It makes me depressed that I knew one of them for a whole 3 years and he decided to do some sketchy fucking shit. Shit man, I still think about it, it hurts to let go.

I miss being able to enjoy video games. Every now and then I would play the occasional vidya, but fuck man, if its not the same anymore. Its really only fun to play them with friends, but if both of you aren't fully invested then its shit.

I miss the old days on SoundCloud, where funny jokes and mashups were prime. I spent so much of my time and energy building up to 3.5 thousand followers before they implemented a new system and I received 3 consecutive strikes. People legitimately enjoyed what I had fun making, it hurts go know I can't bring it back.

I've spent so much of my recent years building from the dirt, it does a number on me.

soup · November 6, 2015 08:14 AM

there was a point where i was really happy and confident with my work. the feeling that i knew what i was doing and i liked the fairly consistent results. i miss that feeling, but itll be back at some point im sure.

Bamyasi · November 6, 2015 08:25 AM

Wow a sincere post from Kizunami. Is this real life?

I used to miss a lot of people, and would lay awake at night wondering what they were up to. It makes me wonder if we're properly evolved for these sorts of transient relationships, but I have gotten used to it. If it's any consolation, people change pretty quickly as they grow into adulthood, and most of them become boring just as fast (most people are the most interesting they'll ever be when there in high school (probably due to rapid developments in anatomy/neurochemistry), I've found. When they hit 20 or so something very precious dies in them). I can't speak for everyone, and it may just be because I'm jaded, but at 21 going on 22 I have pretty much lost the ability to miss old friends, though I do occasionally regret missed connections. Lovers might be a different story, and I wish I were cool enough not to miss one or two of them. I know how it feels to watch people slip away.

In high school I couldn't enjoy video games as much either, and that's probably also due to the fact that friendships are so much more interesting during that period. It's been much easier for me to enjoy them since becoming a legal adult, again, probably because everyone either gets really boring at my age, or alternately, don't initiate intimate conversations with people they don't plan to marry or haven't been friends with for years. My enjoyment does feel somewhat more mechanical though, as with everything, so some of the magic is probably gone forever.

I can't really speak for the soundcloud thing but that does really suck and I'm sorry.

Things I miss:
Widespread use of physical media
Reel-to-reel projectors at cinemas specifically
The internet before social media ruined everything
Arcades even though I wasn't around for their heyday
Watching Rumiko Takahashi anime with my relatives who are now mostly boring adults

Probably that last one the most. I used to really look up to my older female relatives, so I guess the thing I miss most is having a role model. Not having one is probably why my life has been so directionless since I was around 17, so to anyone like me who has always struggled with autonomy, I'd suggest finding one of those.

Dust · November 6, 2015 08:36 AM

I miss the magic of being younger. Maybe something "very precious" did die in me.

SrsSam77 · November 6, 2015 08:57 AM

I miss when going out and dating was about awkward romance, affection, and exploring your intimacy (emotionally and physically) as a human, with another human. Everything now feels so charged sexually and everybody is jumping into sex like it's the only way to be intimate with another person and the only way to show you're interested in them; there's no inbetween, just cold distance or rough bed breaking sex.

I can't take this.
I don't want it.

Bamyasi · November 6, 2015 09:06 AM

This thread is like therapy.

michaell · November 6, 2015 12:45 PM

i miss the guy i bullied real bad at school that i tried to apologise last year but he said " i hope you kill yourself" or something along the lines. Which wasn't very nice! what a cunt

michaell · November 6, 2015 12:58 PM

i find it interesting you guys miss being younger

in my case its the opposite 18 years of age and onward has so far been the happiest time of my life

and my dream is: me being a doctoral graduate with a family of 2-3 kids at home thats cute

crackers · November 6, 2015 05:04 PM

Quote from: soup on November 6, 2015 08:14 AM
there was a point where i was really happy and confident with my work. the feeling that i knew what i was doing and i liked the fairly consistent results. i miss that feeling, but itll be back at some point im sure.

You should take this in your stride, it's because you're improving you're able to see the flaws in the work you're doing now. For that reason, you can now know for sure you're a better artist than you were before

zwimmy · November 6, 2015 05:17 PM

I miss Ottawa, that's where I lived when I went to college. It was a nice city and I had good friends there.
I miss the feeling I got when I first played Halo in the rec room at my dad's office downtown.
I miss the feeling I got when I first used a computer with Windows 95/98.
I miss how Mario 64 used to seem so magical and mysterious.
I miss not worrying about or hating my body all the time.

Bamyasi · November 6, 2015 09:06 PM

Quote from: michaell on November 6, 2015 12:58 PM
i find it interesting you guys miss being younger

in my case its the opposite 18 years of age and onward has so far been the happiest time of my life

I don't miss being younger at all. School was absolutely terrible for me. Not that the workforce is much better but at least as an adult one gets to choose their miseries.

Glad things are working out for you though.

rtil · November 7, 2015 01:13 AM

Quote from: Des Esseintes on November 6, 2015 09:06 PM
Quote from: michaell on November 6, 2015 12:58 PM
i find it interesting you guys miss being younger

in my case its the opposite 18 years of age and onward has so far been the happiest time of my life
I don't miss being younger at all.

agreed

when i was young i was just a lazy kid playing video games and doodling stick figures. i had no direction in life, no passion. i was basically just procrastinating until i picked a career

and while uni was a great experience i would never want to relive it. i am done with school. it was like having a job but instead of getting paid you are paying your employer for the privilege

michaell · November 7, 2015 01:17 AM

i like uni because im studying what im really passionate about and i meet a lot of very smart inspiring people

who often make me feel so small and dumb

but thats the point

high schools a place replete with morons and i remember i really had little motivation to do shit back then
until i found myself a goal, which i achieved, luckily

d-floe · November 7, 2015 03:13 AM

I miss being more creative, being more inspired, being able to draw with a purpose. Shamelessly, since 2011 to 2014 I did a lot of roleplaying with 3 friends on an old IRC chat we frequently used. In there we did cool shit like world build, write characters, and act out as those characters. It was super fucking swell and I regret none of it. It was my main drive to draw cool and interesting shit.
In August of 2014 to October 2014 things started to go downhill. A friend of mine, lets just call him X, got in a ton of arguments and shit with me, always disagreeing about seemingly practical things and preaching some odd shit where "we as roleplayers abuse our characters" and that "characters are just as real as we are" and that "any conflict we put them in is domestic abuse." I was 200% sick of this dude, so I decided "fuck em" and just left to hang out with another roleplaying dude, lets call him Y. Now Y and I have been friends since the beginning in 2011, whereas X didn't come in until late 2012. X however was way more enjoyable to roleplay with, I inherently stopped roleplaying with Y in late 2013 because it simply just didn't work for the both of us. Now I had my own world built where X piggybacked with his characters and whatnot, but since I really didnt want to be a part of that from the incidents, so I scrapped the whole thing. Now see, Y had his own world going on as well, and I figured it'd be cool with him if I helped develop my own characters in his world. He kept going off about how much he thought X was an asshole and how he agreed with me, but I fucking kid you not the fucker I knew for 3 years stabbed me in the back when I fucking found out that he'd been channeling everything I'd told him directly to X. So by October I left both of them, and to this day I have no clue where they are. They're still in my conacts list on skype, but I never cared enough to ever talk to them.

Ill be honest, its been already a whole year, I forgive them both. I'm sure they feel the same way, but I don't feel like I should care.

Anyways, I got super off track, back to the main point. I miss being able to draw with a purpose, back in 2013 my purpose was a world I built called Chronicles of Typhus. Heres an example of something I pulled from an old sketchbook from my Freshman year.
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Then later when I began to work with Y again my purpose was his world called Realm of Telos. Heres examples from my sophomore year sketchbook.
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And now I have nothing. Nothing inspires me other than my will to improve, and I just draw stuff like this at random.
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Then came along Dojo Duels. Now this is a relatively new thing, it actually was officially announced last month, and it's basically this Animation/Comic battle system on this website called Hyuns Dojo. In it they also included an optional Roleplay section, which I fixed I would try, and I dont regret it. Its a real shame I got banned for a month the same day after posting these, but in the moment I truly felt inspired. I felt like my art had a purpose again, like I was actually drawing something with context and entertainment.
These are the images I drew for one Roleplay thread I started.
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Thats it, thats everything until present day, I'm still looking for a purpose to my art, and hopefully when I return to Hyuns Dojo I'll find that purpose once more.

Bamyasi · November 7, 2015 07:22 AM

"Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody."

―a book rtil cliffnoted

zwimmy · November 7, 2015 07:53 AM

Quote from: Kizunami on November 7, 2015 03:13 AM
I miss being more creative, being more inspired, being able to draw with a purpose. Shamelessly, since 2011 to 2014 I did a lot of roleplaying with 3 friends on an old IRC chat we frequently used. In there we did cool shit like world build, write characters, and act out as those characters. It was super fucking swell and I regret none of it. It was my main drive to draw cool and interesting shit.
In August of 2014 to October 2014 things started to go downhill. A friend of mine, lets just call him X, got in a ton of arguments and shit with me, always disagreeing about seemingly practical things and preaching some odd shit where "we as roleplayers abuse our characters" and that "characters are just as real as we are" and that "any conflict we put them in is domestic abuse." I was 200% sick of this dude, so I decided "fuck em" and just left to hang out with another roleplaying dude, lets call him Y. Now Y and I have been friends since the beginning in 2011, whereas X didn't come in until late 2012. X however was way more enjoyable to roleplay with, I inherently stopped roleplaying with Y in late 2013 because it simply just didn't work for the both of us. Now I had my own world built where X piggybacked with his characters and whatnot, but since I really didnt want to be a part of that from the incidents, so I scrapped the whole thing. Now see, Y had his own world going on as well, and I figured it'd be cool with him if I helped develop my own characters in his world. He kept going off about how much he thought X was an asshole and how he agreed with me, but I fucking kid you not the fucker I knew for 3 years stabbed me in the back when I fucking found out that he'd been channeling everything I'd told him directly to X. So by October I left both of them, and to this day I have no clue where they are. They're still in my conacts list on skype, but I never cared enough to ever talk to them.

Ill be honest, its been already a whole year, I forgive them both. I'm sure they feel the same way, but I don't feel like I should care.

Anyways, I got super off track, back to the main point. I miss being able to draw with a purpose, back in 2013 my purpose was a world I built called Chronicles of Typhus. Heres an example of something I pulled from an old sketchbook from my Freshman year.
[spoiler]
[/spoiler]

Then later when I began to work with Y again my purpose was his world called Realm of Telos. Heres examples from my sophomore year sketchbook.
[spoiler]

[/spoiler]

And now I have nothing. Nothing inspires me other than my will to improve, and I just draw stuff like this at random.
[spoiler]
[/spoiler]

Then came along Dojo Duels. Now this is a relatively new thing, it actually was officially announced last month, and it's basically this Animation/Comic battle system on this website called Hyuns Dojo. In it they also included an optional Roleplay section, which I fixed I would try, and I dont regret it. Its a real shame I got banned for a month the same day after posting these, but in the moment I truly felt inspired. I felt like my art had a purpose again, like I was actually drawing something with context and entertainment.
These are the images I drew for one Roleplay thread I started.
[spoiler]

[/spoiler]

Thats it, thats everything until present day, I'm still looking for a purpose to my art, and hopefully when I return to Hyuns Dojo I'll find that purpose once more.

I never knew you were into roleplaying. Thanks for sharing all that. It's nice to learn more about you.

Gladius · November 7, 2015 12:11 PM

miss nothing except my deceased grandpappy everything else is going pretty swell

michaell · November 7, 2015 12:32 PM

interesting friends

slack · November 7, 2015 02:44 PM

I don't miss people, I've always had trouble forming connections with people, my therapist says I'm "asocial", and I have made peace with the fact that I'll never have a good friend or girlfriend, I always get bored of people

But animals... I love animals, I always pretend that I don't like animals cause I don't want people to think I'm strange but I just love people's pets, dogs especially, but recently I became great friends with a kitten, we spent all day every day together for like 2.5 months while I was unemployed, I fed him and cleaned up after him, I held him while he had constipation and I cleaned up the mess he made when he finally made a big poo on the carpet, I was so proud and happy for him, cause he was in so much pain when he couldnt poop

and now I don't live with him anymore, I lost my job and had to move back home and now I never get to see him anymore, it has been truly traumatizing to me, I honestly think that kitten saved my life when I was depressed after losing my job

I also miss the peace of mind I had as a youngster, I don't miss being in school but I miss not having to worry about everything, life is such a struggle man, it's the worst shit ever

michaell · November 7, 2015 03:21 PM

Quote from: slack on November 7, 2015 02:44 PM
I don't miss people, I've always had trouble forming connections with people, my therapist says I'm "asocial", and I have made peace with the fact that I'll never have a good friend or girlfriend, I always get bored of people

But animals... I love animals, I always pretend that I don't like animals cause I don't want people to think I'm strange but I just love people's pets, dogs especially, but recently I became great friends with a kitten, we spent all day every day together for like 2.5 months while I was unemployed, I fed him and cleaned up after him, I held him while he had constipation and I cleaned up the mess he made when he finally made a big poo on the carpet, I was so proud and happy for him, cause he was in so much pain when he couldnt poop

and now I don't live with him anymore, I lost my job and had to move back home and now I never get to see him anymore, it has been truly traumatizing to me, I honestly think that kitten saved my life when I was depressed after losing my job

I also miss the peace of mind I had as a youngster, I don't miss being in school but I miss not having to worry about everything, life is such a struggle man, it's the worst shit ever

i thought you had a girlfriend