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to be honest i feel like i reminisce about the past but i don't feel all gooey and nostalgic about it. i feel like the older i get it's just getting easier to grow more emotionally distant to memories. maybe

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I get nostalgic for certain weather conditions, and specific types of places. Even places I have never been, but invoke specific emotions. Sometimes I get nostalgic for things that I've never experienced at all in the first place, which is weird I guess.

i miss my grandparents' house

that specific and singular vibe of certain moments i guess, that could only be felt once cuz if you went back and tried to recreate it would just be that vibe except youd know in your heart how forced it was

i dont miss sh*t

i'm nostalgic for web 1.0 even though connections were slow as fucking shit and video was 240p it's still comfy af

i find myself most nostalgic for an era that i just barely remember- where i was existing, but i wasn't really "there" for things. the 90s has unironically been fascinating to uncover because of things like web 1.0, the fifth generation of consoles, what music was like, where pop culture was, etc

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Quote from: BluPhoenix on October  4, 2023 04:44 PMi find myself most nostalgic for an era that i just barely remember- where i was existing, but i wasn't really "there" for things. the 90s has unironically been fascinating to uncover because of things like web 1.0, the fifth generation of consoles, what music was like, where pop culture was, etc

i can tell you what it was like sonny boy
in the moment, since it was all we knew, and things were changing fast, it was pretty fucking amazing.  although most people couldn't afford the best hardware when it comes to PC stuff, you usually knew a friend who you could go over to their house and experience something you didn't have, be it the latest console, or a game your PC couldn't run (very common)
there are some things that are hard to describe, those "you had to have been there" moments
nostalgia for it is understandable whether you were there to experience it fully or not, however i think if most people could actually go back they would get bored/impatient very quickly. we are too spoiled now

Quotethere are some things that are hard to describe, those "you had to have been there" moments

I remember Summer 2000 like;
There were line ups for Marvel 2, big line ups. for the single cabinet.

And Vagrant story still had a lot of polish to it for having Near, Metal Gear tier cinematic cutscenes.

And Metal Gear 2 previews were fucking amazing and was nearly about to come out

And then Utter poo poo happened like Schoolboard and Teacher strikes

And then 9-11.....

Toronto has still been ridiculously shitty since then , no matter who is pointing the finger at whom;
E.g. an entire schoolboard administration wanting the latest iPhones (https://toronto.ctvnews.ca/education-minister-blasts-tdsb-for-proposal-to-spend-millions-on-iphones-for-staff-1.4449420#:~:text=Education%20Minister%20blasts%20TDSB%20for%20proposal%20to%20spend%20millions%20on%20iPhones%20for%20staff,-Natalie%20Johnson%20CTV&text=The%20board%20cancelled%20their%20proposal,constraints%2C%22%20a%20spokesperson%20said.&text=Education%20Minister%20Lisa%20Thompson%20blasts,millions%20on%20iPhones%20for%20staff.). My mom and dad were teachers and I am literally unphased at this sort of thing now.

the pre-9/11 world really does seem more innocent looking back. literally nothing good came out of that

Quote from: rtil on October  4, 2023 09:35 PMi can tell you what it was like sonny boy
in the moment, since it was all we knew, and things were changing fast, it was pretty fucking amazing.  although most people couldn't afford the best hardware when it comes to PC stuff, you usually knew a friend who you could go over to their house and experience something you didn't have, be it the latest console, or a game your PC couldn't run (very common)
there are some things that are hard to describe, those "you had to have been there" moments
nostalgia for it is understandable whether you were there to experience it fully or not, however i think if most people could actually go back they would get bored/impatient very quickly. we are too spoiled now

yeah, there's a pretty good calvin and hobbes comic where calvin's dad says "technology doesn't make life more convenient, it makes life harassed"- at the time where so much of life was transferring from analog to digital technology and making such great strides in doing so, i'd imagine future shock was a much more familiar feeling to the average person as the tech became more and more ubiquitous. while it was a fascinating time, it did flag down how spoiled we'd eventually become and how tech-illiterate a lot of people would be as it became easier to use and did more for us. i do appreciate the perspective where i can get it, so thank you kindly

honestly i think people being more willing to be bored today would be a generally positive thing. not in a boo technology bad kind of way but a lot of what's out there to be consumed rn is pretty empty content. having less habits formed around things that are more distractions than actually engaging would probably make me personally much happier.

i don't think i would describe what i feel for a lot of things in the past as nostalgia as much as remembering stuff that mattered then that i still want to respect in whatever i care about today. no matter what i felt was a really good memory, there was always something that i don't really envy about past periods anyway and whoever i used to be, and generally i'm usually happier with who i've grown into/where i am now.

i definitely get nostalgic about a few video game memories though that can't really be reobtained.

yeah pretty much. i don't really envy the past because most times were pretty double-sided. which in a way is good because it helps me carry on with making the present better generally. no need to get caught up in the past all the time.

sometimes i think of people that really had no issue at all irt their late teens/early 20s and i wonder, but only once in a while

I was nostalgic until I started browsing my posts from a decade and a half ago (2009 ish)
they're so painful to read lmfao. I was so unwell back then

Old internet is golden internet every suxs nowadays including grammar nazis

That and I miss YTPs

I get nostalgic for how much shit I used to make

Now I just shit~

one day cooldrmoney woke up and took a shit because hey he's cooldrmoney

somehow i found my way here on accident and wtf we're back?

hello everynyan, how are you?

fine thank you

Quote from: cipher on December 10, 2023 06:26 AMsomehow i found my way here on accident and wtf we're back?

hello everynyan, how are you?

fine thank you

we are so back
it is no longer so over

Quote from: rtil on December 10, 2023 06:30 AM

Quote from: cipher on December 10, 2023 06:26 AMsomehow i found my way here on accident and wtf we're back?

hello everynyan, how are you?

fine thank you

we are so back
it is no longer so over

it is good to be home

maybe i will celebrate this occasion with finally getting an avatar

or maybe not

i will sleep on it

it's ok take your time

It's... difficult for me to put this on words since I'm not very good with that, but I kind of miss my high-school days, when I was taking being an artist seriously and start to lean to myself alongside my friends alongside the authentic Interaction between people, communities, and creators in the mid and late 2010's, at least for me. they were not perfect, of course, but there was something special about those times, specially when you really start for the first time to navigate thru the web and Interact with others.