If you could do it over again, what would you change?

rtil · January 20, 2015 12:38 PM

Quote from: valiums on January 20, 2015 12:08 PM
Be 100x more selfish, and do more things for me

i wish more people realized this is ok to do. and if your friends are true they will support your 'selfish' goals and be happy for you living for yourself

redmongoose · January 20, 2015 06:27 PM

nothing

SrsSam77 · January 21, 2015 01:13 AM

Quote from: redmongoose on January 20, 2015 06:27 PM
nothing

This guy's got it

Blordow · January 22, 2015 02:02 AM

ahhh man there's a few regrets but I try not to dwell on them as they are in the past, just gotta make sure you learn from it and progress as a human being, namaste 420, aliens exist w r the hybridz

cipher · January 22, 2015 05:26 AM

lots

dilly · January 22, 2015 05:38 AM

I would have told my mom I appreciated and loved her more, especially when she was in hospice care.

I know everyone has a different parental situation, but after celebrating her birthday yesterday for the fifth year she's been gone, I wish I wasn't so reclusive because I was scared of what was going to happen when she was here. She gave up a career to be a stay-at-home mother for my sisters and I, and ever since she's been gone, I've felt that I wasn't as appreciative of the choices and the support she gave me.

I have grown a lot in her absence and I wish she were still here to see that.

rtil · January 22, 2015 08:15 AM

Quote from: dilly on January 22, 2015 05:38 AM
I would have told my mom I appreciated and loved her more, especially when she was in hospice care.

I know everyone has a different parental situation, but after celebrating her birthday yesterday for the fifth year she's been gone, I wish I wasn't so reclusive because I was scared of what was going to happen when she was here. She gave up a career to be a stay-at-home mother for my sisters and I, and ever since she's been gone, I've felt that I wasn't as appreciative of the choices and the support she gave me.

I have grown a lot in her absence and I wish she were still here to see that.

today, one of my professors passed away of a terminal illness, and i've been thinking about similar things about him and other poeple in my life who have passed on. like the last thing i said to them, if i ever did something that made them sad, if there was something else i could have done, etc. i haven't lost a parent, so i don't know the same feeling, but stilll looking at friends, family and others in my life that i've lost in a different light, one that i didn't ever think about when i took their presence for granted.

once someone is gone, we always tend to wrestle with the "what if's", and it can be really frustrating. we beat ourselves up over it and it fills us with doubt and grief. but know that you wouldn't be the person you are today without those memories and experiences, and how much you've learned since then. you can mourn these moments in the past, but at the same time give yourself the benefit of forgiving your former self. the you of yesterday, a year ago, 5 years ago - it is not the you of today. cherish the good memories and know that there is no reason to blame ourselves for things we couldn't have possibly understood when we were experiencing them. our hindsight tries to trick us in to this circle of defeating thoughts, but the fact you feel the way you do now means that you always have loved her as best you knew how. and i don't know what you believe (i don't know myself anymore), but there's a part of me that feels that there's an existence beyond the ones we know, where those who have passed on are in a place of peace. either way, i'm sure that your mother would want you to live your life looking ahead with the love you have.

i'm not sure if anything i'm saying is helpful, but i've been through some very similar feelings and this is mostly advice given to me to help cope. in a nutshell, the quote "don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened" is how i try to look at things.

dilly · January 23, 2015 05:05 AM

thanks rtil it does

and I myself am not so religious anymore, but I take comfort in believing she went to the heaven she believed in.

rtil · January 23, 2015 06:06 AM

i feel the same way. i was once very devout, then the complete opposite. now, i'm not so sure. there's a lot of philosophy and theology out there i haven't touched. and i envy those who do have the capacity to believe, i wish i still could. i think that passing on in this life will bring peace under a couple of different circumstances, so that also gives me comfort. i just can't imagine something bad happening to a good person's soul if we do indeed have one.

Shu-chan · January 23, 2015 01:57 PM

I would have taken high school more seriously and gone to college right away.

ZekeySpaceyLizard · January 23, 2015 03:35 PM

I would tell myself not to go to college.
I would tell myself to make video game parodies once the early 2000's hit so I could end up being a rich and famous youtuber later in life and not have to work anymore.
I would tell myself to give up on a lot of hopes and dreams that fizzled out as time went by.
I would tell myself not to get on that bus.
I would tell myself to make porn with Tim when I had the opportunity so I could be a famous pornographer later.
I would tell myself of the glut of Let's Players later and to quickly beat them to it before it becomes a popular thing.
I would tell myself not to accept just a meager sum for that one piece of Minecraft fanart that sells in Walmarts and Spencer's Gift Stores across the united states that I don't see a penny for.
I would warn myself what happens when I teach flash animation to others for free.
I would warn myself not to trust Khawner.
I would warn myself not to trust Tom Fulp.
I would warn myself not to trust Happy Leet Gost.
I would warn myself not to put up cartoons for free.
I would warn myself not to work for free.
I would warn myself not to trust Armor Games.
I would warn myself not to trust Billy Monks.
I would warn myself that by the time I hit 30 I will be everything I was always frightened I'd become.

Actually looking at this list I think I'd probably tell myself to just give up on art entirely and get a less depressing better paying career in something else.

hydroperoxide · January 23, 2015 10:02 PM

invest in bitcoin and sell off accordingly

CoolDrMoney · January 26, 2015 04:28 AM

Quote from: ZekeySpaceyLizard on January 23, 2015 03:35 PM
I would tell myself not to accept just a meager sum for that one piece of Minecraft fanart that sells in Walmarts and Spencer's Gift Stores across the united states that I don't see a penny for.
I would warn myself not to trust Tom Fulp.
I would warn myself not to trust Billy Monks.

I am sort of interested in these ones here. What Minecraft thing did you do and why not trust them two dudes. If the latter is just some drama bullshit I don't need to know then don't bother tellin me.

I'm pretty much with ya on all of them and it's sort of depressing. I've built most if not all of my life around this idea of what I wanted to do when I was older and kept working towards that goal and now I'm here and I just expected to be further along then I am. I'm happy but I would like a more fulfilling job or actually start a career for my degree that I spent so much (government) money on..

Long story short I'm starting to think Egoraptor was right all along.

rtil · January 26, 2015 05:56 AM

Quote from: CoolDrMoney on January 26, 2015 04:28 AM

Long story short I'm starting to think Egoraptor was right all along.

right about what?

CoolDrMoney · January 26, 2015 07:00 AM

There was a thread on here awhile ago where we got into an argument it was probably around when Brawl Funnies came out. He was saying he animated vidya game parodies which got him to where he is today and that it would give him the opportunity and free time to make other art related, meaningful content since he wouldn't have to rely on some wage job for his income. I was arguing pretty much the opposite. But man with 40 hours being devoted to some job that I don't get any fulfillment or much dough at and barely having time to work on anything anyway I'm starting to think his way was right all along. Got to pander first and then you can start doing your own shit.

There's probably a drawback to that method too but I wouldn't know! Also looking back at all the old posts when we were collabin got me awful nostalgic~

rtil · January 26, 2015 08:02 AM

you do realize that the pandering is a vicious cycle, right? there is no exit strategy. ask anyone who does "game grumps animated" or anything of an equivalent - once you get subscribers for that kind of content, that's all they want to see! they're not going to be interested in anything else. they will even get angry at you for not making more of it, and probably unsubscribe. unless if it's very well produced, in which case the ROI usually puts you in the red. there are only a handful of people who can 'ride' their ad revenue comfortably, and for everyone that can there's thousands who don't.

ego wasn't right, he was lucky.

all of ego's animated content not only is video game parody related, but he doesn't even produce it anymore. he pays other people to animate it. his live action stuff is just another lets play channel. easy money if you're popular, sure, but the revenue model is volatile and unstable. and, in my opinion, is not a fulfilling "career". he is not doing his own shit. he is riding off the coattails of video game pop culture. he has never produced anything that didn't involve references.

don't regret the conscious choice you made not to take that path. there is no reason you can't make original content. we are all in the same boat. none of us have the luxury of being able to just sit around and do whatever we want to do. from the outside looking in, it seems like the youtube starlets are people to be envious of, but trust me when i say it's far from the truth. it's a world chock full of just as much bullshit as everywhere else. in fact, it might possibly be worse. and some day it will all come crashing down. youtube won't be around forever, and google has no obligation as a service to provide the revenue it does to its content providers. it's also incredibly unfriendly to animators because of how they scale ad revenue.

CoolDrMoney · January 26, 2015 05:29 PM

I guess the grass is always greener. Overall I am content with my life and the world around me. I'm just tired of my job (along with 99.9% of people in the country)

rtil · January 26, 2015 11:13 PM

everyone always wants something they can't have. just try to remember that when looking at other people, you often only see the "highlight reel" of their lives. don't hold yourself to that impossible standard. we all have our ups and downs.

soup · January 27, 2015 12:30 AM

my life is cool

fish · January 28, 2015 03:27 PM

I would have put more effort into getting enough pizza points for a whole pizza by now.

One of my life goals is to make RTIL buy me a pizza, sometimes it gets hard and I want to give up but my friends are there to help me when I lose my way.